Caitlyn Jenner couldn't contain her emotion as she made her acceptance speech after being bestowed with the Arthur Ashe Courage Award at the ESPYs last week, and although it was raw and touching, she has since revealed that it was harder for her to get through than any of us could have even imagined.
Writing candidly in a blog post about the evening and the inevitable toll her first live appearance has taken on her, Caitlyn explained: 'As a dyslexic kid, my biggest fear in life was to go in front of the class and read because I just wasn’t very good at it — and that stays with you through your whole life.' You're telling us Cait — to this day we still get heart palpitations speaking at our weekly fashion meetings, let alone having the entire world as an audience.
However, she went on to reveal that her biggest fear was upsetting her children, most of whom were sitting in the front rows of the audience to see her give her tear-jerking speech. 'The toughest part in the speech was my kids. It was hard to look over there and see all of my children. As I said in the speech, I don’t want to hurt anybody. I just want to be myself. I barely got through that.'
But, by the looks of Kendall, Kylie, Brody Jenner and Kim, Kourtney and Khloe on the night, they couldn't have been prouder of their father and what she's done for society. In fact, the entire brood got so emotional, just looking at them brings a tear to our eye all over again...
Keep it together, guys — think of the mascara!
However, the evening wasn't all doom and gloom for Cait — at the after-party, she went on to say that after conquering her last challenge of the evening, she was finally able to let her hair down and have a good time. She quipped, 'I was able to get off the stage without tripping and I went upstairs and had a party.'
Yep, no one wants to do a Jennifer Lawrence on one of the most important evenings of their life, do they Caitlyn?